I just want someone to talk to about the way my life is going?

That sounds awful however you are not alone. You are young and you will definitely meet someone. It just takes time. I suggest you put distance between you and your so called friends. It never hurts to start again or even try travelling so that you can get to know yourself. The further you go and the more adventerous you are will increase your confidence immensley. It is true. People do take the piss out of others. Mainly because of their insecurities. I left school with nothing. Was raised bad but i travelled. Worked my *** off and now i have a good life. Although i still have a few emotional issues. I met a lot of people along the way who feel the same as you do now and that forges friendships for life. Get out of your rut. Life is a blessing so get out there and live it. Bottom line is only you can do this. So do it. You have it in you. We all do. All the best. Feel free to chat if you need advice ob travelling. Etc.